Here's a quick recap of what I've been up to since my last post:
Went batshit crazy on Provera. STAY AWAY FROM PROVERA!
Turned 30. Had kick ass party. Got drunk. Happy 3-0 to me!
Went on birth control and the bitch monster that I was went away. Happy and level again.
Had a great 4th of July.
Went to various carnivals and ate too much fried dough with powdered sugar. Mmmmm!!
Went on South Beach diet and lost 4 lbs in 4 days. Got lazy again.
Had polyp and fibroid removed from uterus.
Started Lupron while still on birth control in preparation for IVF cycle.
Went to Lancaster, PA with Howie, Aislinn & in-laws for a weekend.
Went camping in Cape Cod with Howie, Aislinn & my sister, brother-in-law & niece! It rocked and I wish we could have stayed longer.
Started hardcore fertility meds and all was going well...
That catches us up to now. We were expecting that I should have been ready to trigger tonight or tomorrow but went in this morning and how strange... my uterine lining went from type 1 to type 2 which is no good. Need to be type 1. My follicles, not doing a thing. Lazy fucking ovaries!!! Dr. Hotness checked me over and over and then said that we'll see what my estrogen levels are but right now it looks like I've only been on meds for 3 days and he'd rather cancel this cycle and start over with a higher dose.
WHAT THE HELL??? I can't believe that I didn't even get to the negative pregnancy test. So, my in-laws shelled out the cash for this cycle just like the did for the last one and this time we didn't even get to make embryos so I don't think they're going to pay for another cycle. Hahaha, "I don't think". They're not going to pay for another cycle. Why should they? There's no guarantee that it'll work out but not even finishing a cycle and loosing your cash is pretty shitty. I feel guilty and responsible and I'm considering renaming my reproductive organs "The Money Pit". That's what they are.
The other thing that upsets me is that when the meds stop I'm going to go back to being the hormonally imbalanced mess that PCOS has made me. I can take the pill but I'd like to improve my fertility while staying hormonally balanced if possible and not prevent pregnancy but I guess I can't do that. I also know that in 6 months I'll probably have another polyp and/or fibroid that will need to be removed before I try to make babies at home... which is just totally ridiculous anyway. Making babies at home the old fashioned way. LOL.
I know I should just wait to hear what my estrogen level is but what does it really matter? My follicles and lining don't look right, so what good is that?
